歌唱的歌唱．敬拜的敬拜？

從教會的敬拜會回來。
一路上，我反覆思想剛剛的經驗。

唔。我只能說，我沒法專心。
腦袋常常飄到遠處－－
其實也是不遠處：
究竟敬拜的意義是什麼？

我記得，不久以前，
有人跟我說：
「我不知道唱詩時神在不在，
只覺得大家都是互相唱給對方聽，
是reassurance。」

噢，我很迷惘。
如果是這樣子的話，
那我們去唱K就行了，
唱什麼詩？

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今晚我讀到了這個情景。
我不懂解讀裏面的神學意義，
只直覺覺得，也許，也許，敬拜是這麼一回事。

是嗎？



2 Chronicles 29: 25 - 36 (MSG)


The king ordered the Levites to take their places in The Temple of God with their musical instruments—cymbals, harps, zithers—following the original instructions of David, Gad the king's seer, and Nathan the prophet; this was God's command conveyed by his prophets. The Levites formed the orchestra of David, while the priests took up the trumpets.

Then Hezekiah gave the signal to begin: The Whole-Burnt-Offering was offered on the Altar; at the same time the sacred choir began singing, backed up by the trumpets and the David orchestra while the entire congregation worshiped. The singers sang and the trumpeters played all during the sacrifice of the Whole-Burnt-Offering. When the offering of the sacrifice was completed, the king and everyone there knelt to the ground and worshiped. Then Hezekiah the king and the leaders told the Levites to finish things off with anthems of praise to God using lyrics by David and Asaph the seer. They sang their praises with joy and reverence, kneeling in worship.

Hezekiah then made this response: "The dedication is complete—you're consecrated to God. Now you're ready: Come forward and bring your sacrifices and Thank-Offerings to The Temple of God."

And come they did. Everyone in the congregation brought sacrifices and Thank-Offerings and some, overflowing with generosity, even brought Whole-Burnt-Offerings, a generosity expressed in seventy bulls, a hundred rams, and two hundred lambs—all for Whole-Burnt-Offerings for God! The total number of animals consecrated for sacrifice that day amounted to six hundred bulls and three thousand sheep. They ran out of priests qualified to slaughter all the Whole-Burnt-Offerings so their brother Levites stepped in and helped out while other priests consecrated themselves for the work. It turned out that the Levites had been more responsible in making sure they were properly consecrated than the priests had been. Besides the overflow of Whole-Burnt-Offerings there were also choice pieces for the Peace-Offerings and lavish libations that went with the Whole-Burnt-Offerings. The worship in The Temple of God was on a firm footing again!

Hezekiah and the congregation celebrated: God had established a firm foundation for the lives of the people—and so quickly!


每個人都有自己的位置，
或唱或彈。
潔淨自己。
獻祭、俯伏。
每個人都走上前去獻上感恩，
或大或小。

然後，這個敬拜成為大家生活的基石。


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然後，有一些問題。

敬拜，應該不會是新歌發佈會吧？

為什麼敬拜要如師奶劇一樣，
務求在短時間內，
經歷所有的情緒高低，
讓你哭讓你笑，
才叫好？

究竟歌曲是中心還是經文是重點？
為什麼可以，
隨手拿起一堆經文，
塞進敬拜裏？

沒有主題，不知道把人帶到哪裏去的敬拜沒問題嗎？

找齊ABCD四款詩歌，
就可以結合成為一個敬拜嗎？

敬拜是個人經驗，
還是集體共鳴？

音樂是敬拜的工具，還是重點？

如果，我根本不同意歌詞內容，
我不想開口唱詩，
那我是不是就不是在敬拜神？

如果，我不想重覆又重覆的唱Chorus，
唱完一次尾句又一次尾句，
升Key 又Key，
看台上的人在陶醉，
我可以停止嗎？

我不想自我催眠。


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我沒法整理腦內的想法。

只好又說一些腦內的片段。

一。

我第一次參加五月天的演唱會。
幾乎每一首歌都熱烈地唱。
因為我真的好想「逃離這個瘋狂世界」、
我也有「我驕傲的倔強」、
我也認為「就算是這個世界　把我拋棄　而至少快樂傷心我自己決定」．．．


二。

有次，我和輝去露營，
在燒丸子的時候，
討論到對敬拜的想法。
「說出來，也許很褻瀆，」我怯怯的說，
「 但我覺得上次去聽五月天演唱會的經驗，
還比較像敬拜。」

「哈哈哈．．．」輝笑起來。

「 唏，」我辯解，
「至少，I mean what I sing，I know what I sing，
and I believe in what I sing！！！」



三。

在突破村的118課室。
與同工為敬拜作rehearsal，
最後一次的rehearsal。

「那麼我們今次由頭到尾練一次吧。」她說。
「讓我們先經歷這個敬拜，才可以和其他同工一起經歷。
開始吧。（翻看預備好的經文和稿子）咳咳．．．
上星期五就是Ash Friday，代表我們已進入五旬節。
讓我們在這一次的敬拜中，一同經歷耶穌進入耶路撒冷的過程．．．」

我邊彈邊聽大家的歌聲、讀經。

心裏很震動。
眼淚在眼框裏滾動。

我知道，我遇上了神．
在敬拜當中。

縱然我要彈琴，
縱然沒有很多伴奏樂哭，
縱然只是4個人在敬拜。

我們卻真實的遇上祂，
且俯伏在前。





我不是要求經歷。
我不是要求每次敬拜都要震動人心。

我，只是要求，
一個有內容的敬拜。

技巧，反而還是次要。

我，只是對敬拜還有要求而已。