Change

Never say never.

I used to believe I'd never be a vegetarian.
But after being bombarded again and again at banquets on "why waste a bowl of fine shark fin soup?",
I found myself giving answers like, "I may actually resort to vegan meals some day."

People do change.
I change. Still changing


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This crazily busy CNY has actually gave me some thought,
on how much I have changed these years.

For one thing, I didn't like family gathering that much, say 5 years ago.
It's all noisy, crowded and a lot of shouting at kids, mahjong playing and heavy food.
I only go for the laisees. (yes, I was realistic and materialistic - Perhaps, still am.)

It hasn't changed much this year.
It's still noisy, crowded and shouting is still going on sometimes.
Except I don't get any laisees, instead, I am GIVING OUT red packets generously like they only contain Monopoly money.

But I DO enjoy my time with my family.
The mahjong is fun (though I am a constant loser).
and chatting with my aunts and uncles and cousins have never been so satisfying.

Perhaps, as you grow up, your clock start to click louder,
and you know there aren't much time left to spend with the people you love.

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Oh, right. Time. That's the changing part.

I don't mean to say time have changed us. Make us grow old and stubborn - all that cliches and bullshXT.

I mean to say, how I view time has changed.
When you were young and reckless and not-employed and worry-free,
time is to be SPENT, often thoughtlessly.

When you grow old, or just grow up, should I say,
time is to be SHARED, often thoughtfully.

I'd rather share my time and my whole-being,
cuddling in bed with the one I love,
than shopping around in the identical malls, feeding up the ever-swelling appetite of clothes.

Reading a book.
Watching a comedy with friends.
Sharing an afternoon walk.
Enjoying a family dinner on a Sunday with the TV on.

The more I share my time, as much I become more tired,
I found myself less interested at staying in front of the computer and peering thru' other people's life.

and I love that.

There's not much of a lesson into this change.
It just happened.

and here goes my 2012 resolution: Get a real life and share my time on things and people I love and cherish.

And, do write more (even if it's as crap as this).