Endurance

I believe HE's talking to me.

Twice a day,
I was given the same scripture:
"Here is a trustworthy saying:
If we died with him,
we will also live with him.
If we endure, we will also reign with him.
If we disown him, he will also disown us.
If we are faithless, he will remain faithful,
for he cannot disown himself." (2 Timonthy 2:11 - 13)

Twice a day,
I was told to try to endure what's going on right now -
though I don't understand it,
and I don't enjoy a single bit in this sticky situation.



Come to think of it, while they sound alike (esp in Chinese),
'endurance' and 'patience' are two very different things.

While 'patience' simply means you have to wait for something to happen,
'endurance' almost ensures that it's going to be like hell while you wait.

Ok, I got the message - to endure.
Could I just fire away some of my queries?


What am I waiting for?
What do I hope for?
What do I expect to change after I get out of hell?
Or is it an ever-lasting hell? and we are talking about a lifelong endurance?

Could I yell and shout and complain while enduring the harshness of life?
If I complain, am I still enduring??
Does endurance include silence??

Could I become a LOUD endurer?

no idea.



I suppose I'd just have to endure the current situation,
and patiently wait for the answer, hopefully, to dawn on me someday.


(Oh, this is such a dump entry.  )